Have you watched the movie “My Dinner with Andre”? I like the movie because it gives a good example of what epiphanies look like. Not enlightenment but the very first step of the journey.

When Andre says “ Yeah, well, most…most people I met thought there was something wrong with me. They didn’t say that but I could tell that that was what they thought. But, you see, what I think I experienced was, for the first time in my life, to know what it means to be truly alive. Now, that’s very frightening, because with that comes an immediate awareness of death, cause they go hand in hand, you know, the kind of impulse that led to Walt Whitman, that led to “Leaves of Grass”, you know, that feeling of being connected to everything means to also be connected to death. And that’s pretty scary. But, I really felt as if I were floating above the ground, not walking, you know, and I could do things like go out to the highway and watch the lights go from red to green and think, “How wonderful!””

This is what an epiphany looks like. That moment when you realize something is not quite right, as in, you don’t really fit into the crowd.